Feeling of defeat

Recently I started,going back too school too further my education in Human Resource Management. I could say,I underestimated it and still doing everything the old way for the first 4 months,but then reality knocked me off my feet. I didn’t do well on me first exam and I cried. I feld defeated and lost. When taught you could do it all,take care off your family,get to your work on time most off the time,cook clean and make time for the kids,my partner,my mother and study. Well reality check you can’t do it al if you don’t change. I feel hurt by myself for thinking I could do it all. I am now thinking to myself why did you put yourself up for failure. But another part of me is still like you can do it. Ask for help!! That’s the million dollar answer. As moms we forget to ask for help and think we can do it all,but forget that we can also fall ill. Note to self you can do it all,but also remind yourself you need help sometimes!! Well that’s what I wanted to get off my chest. I hope my next note blog will be more inspiring. Note off a frustrated mom. Love for my imaginary readers !!!

I am back!!!!!

Hi guys its been a longgggggggggggggg,stay away for me, but I will make the effort to come back slowly. For you guys that follow me on instagram, know already that there is a 5th member joining our family soon. I am really still in the blues because I still do not know what I am having, but staying optimistic.Lets see next thursday, when I have my next ultrasound.I started to feel the absence off writing a few days ago,when I realist that the reason I started writing first off all was because of the passing of my sister, and this is actually 3 years ago now. I still feel a slight way about this lost, but I will get there some day and really get closure.

On another note I am excited to welcome this new family member in our home and stay tune for more of my blogs . I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is Officially July, at least it was!!! Part 3

And then my Birthday happened, on the 11th of July. I had a easy day I did not want a lot just a photoshoot!!!! And I baked my own cake, so do not judge my work to heavy, I am not a bakker(lol). For you who follow me on Instagram HERE maybe you saw the pictures already, but I like too share so its time for the blog, love you guys bye bye, till next time. I think my next post, will be vacation time for the kids, school will be out from 16 August till end September 2018. Also follow me at Bloglovin here !!!!

Details on the balloons here , here ,here

 

 

 

 

 

It is officially July,actually it was !!! Part 2

The second reasons why July is a busy month is ITTTTTSS OUR BIRTHDAYYYY MONTH!!!!(lol). To be exact its also my second son birthday month. So after the first of July,the memorial day of the end of Slavery in my country,its my sons birthday on the second off July. So that is why I really wasn’t engaging in activities the past years. But this year I had a bigger problem on my hands; the Ninjago ninjas where at my home(lol). My son was really intend on having a birthday party, and it had too be a Ninjago Birthday party. I really was not expecting that from him, so we improvised. I actually love DIY, so I got to work on checking out Pinterest, my best friend for Ninjago birthday party ideas. After I checked out Pinterest I went to the local party shops, which got me even further away from the Ninjago birthday theme, because they where just starting up with this theme, and did not have a lot from the Ninjago ninja’s. So I had little to work with. But being a mom and never wanting to disappoint my boys, I managed to make it work. I also recommend Aliexpress, they really got the ball rolling for me. I will leave the links to the stuff I bought from them and a party shop in the Netherlands HERE  which my aunt helped me with, always, so a life saver, thank you Aunty. At the end he was happy and so was I. Check out the pics and the links for the Ninjago theme birthday party!!! The Birthday boy, Cyian happy and smiling!!! He turned 4 bye the way(lol)

His cake with the Ninjago ninja’s on the lego blocks!!!here

 

I also added some plastic swimming pools which really made this party the highlight of his day!!!

Here are the links for the Aliexpress stuff:Balloons, Shirt,Mini Ninjago ninja’s

And check out my DIY ninja cookie cutter here,pinata here  and spinningwheel sticks with soft candy!!!here

 

 

It’s Officially July!!!Or it was when this comes out.Part 1

Hi guys, July was a very busy month for me, you ask why??? Lets get in to it. The first off July is the Emancipation day of Slavery in my country, which marks 155 years this year. Usually I do not engage in a lot activities surrounding this day but this year I just wanted to be apart of a celebration,and yes it really was a celebration my family more my aunts took this Memorial of 155 years Slavery emancipation by storm. They dressed it up as can be expected from these black women being descendants from black slaves. The slavery in my country Suriname for you which do not now where I am at (LOL 😂), which is in South America nearby Brazil and Guyana, ended exactly about the first off July 1863,which wasn’t really the ending of the slavery period, because the slaves where obligated to work for at least 10 years for there masters, but under a tiny bit better circumstances. I say a tiny bit better circumstances because all was not well for the the” free slaves”. A lot off the slaves where still in bad situations, others where left alone on the plantations to look out for there selves which wasn’t easy. But enough history for this time, read more here . To get back to the clothing worn on these days, yes days they dressed in traditional clothes for the whole week before the first of July. Some change it up a bit, they ad a few modern touches too there clothing, but the most have on the traditional clothing named the Koto. This clothing style is a small blouse on top and a big skirt on the bottom and A Lot of under garments!!! To get a feel for what I am talking about check out my picture below.

WHY PLANNING IS THE BEST!!!

Hi guys I have been gone for a while sorry !!!!!. For the first 3 months of this year  my hands where pretty full. But I have a very important excuse for that. And that is planning my sons birthday party. So I certainly underestimated planning  the birthday of my son, he turned  6 years old on the 19th off March. I really wanted to make up for last year when he turned 5 , and my partner and I had to cancel all the plans for his swimming party, because off the passing of my sister. But I was determined to make this years birthday one he would not easily forget.So I asked where do you want too have your birthday party?? Keep  in mind he is turning 6, and the answer was the Zoo.

So there it started, none the less did I knew that it would be so much work. And all you moms out there reading this know planning your kids birthday party is a women’s job !!! No offence too the dads that are active in these kind of things concerning there kids.As I contacted the Zoo for availability on the 18th of March,yes the Sunday before his real birthday, because it would be difficult for the parents which get of work by 4 and 5 to bring there kids,and the Zoo closes at 6 o”clock. And so it went on, the hard part was finding someone for a cake. I wanted a Zoo park theme cake. Which turned out very well as I might say, because the animals on the cake where toy animals, so my son was very happy with that part. The day drew near, and is was party time. Now came another hard part,which I did not expect too be difficult at all. Decorating  the tent in the zoo. I forgot how short I am and I couldn’t reach the pools too hang up the balloons and other decorations, God sent a colleague of mine was early so she helped me with that part. I am glad that I did throw this party for my son he was super super thank full of every part of it. I love my kids they sometimes drive me crazy, but they are mine. He also had a lot to celebrate on the day off his birthday, because his teacher really makes a effort too make here classroom look like a never ending party. On till next time,love you guys hugs and kisses!!!!! Happy too see him happy on his Zoo- birthday party!!!!

Just hanging out!!!This dude is keeping the animals in check.

My grandma 86 years old,but still knows how too have fun.

 

His birthday at school.

Till next time guys, now busy with the little ones birthday he is turning 4, because his brother got one, fewwww, tired all ready!!! Hugs and kisses!!!!!!!

 

And Kwanzaa happened!!!

Hi guys I promised you guys that I would give you a full report off my families Kwanzaa celebration so here it is. We started the celebration with the lightning off the special Kwanzaa candles, which lightened up a special feeling in me, the feeling of arriving in something you worked hard for,and we worked hard to make this day to what it involved to be. Getting emotional LOL 😂. The nights appetizer was the pompoensoep and the shrimp mini sliders. And then we where ready for the main courses,which where just amazing, we had spicy black eye peas, black eye peas salad with fresh veggies and bulgur rice, fresh green salad with mosterdsaus dressing, jerk chicken, piri piri chicken, the blackened fish also made the table, fried sweet potatoes and regular potatoes, jollof rice, fried spicy and regular okra and last but not least salmon pasta. I did not have time to make separate pictures of every dish but my photographer did his best. Judging on the faces off my family the night the food and the” sing a long” karaoke 🎤 where a succes. I think next year we will be try something new for Christmas again, but not really thinking about that right now. For now sweet love and love one another is my message for the next year’s too come. Love you GUYS!!!! Here come the pictures!!!

Quality time is life!!!!

Too end the vacation period my partner and I decided too take a vacation from the vacation period with the boys. I arranged a one night get-away so we could spent some time alone. Often we forget as parents that we need some time for ourselfs too. Life gets so busy during work days that we forget to take a breather. We as parents also deserve some free time from our daily routine. So we decided to go too Bergendal Resort Suriname here. I wanted too go here for a long time, but as ussual we are too busy. I was overjoyed when my partner said yes too the idea. So I made the arrangements . I did not really now what too expect, but on first arrival I was drawn too the view of the Surinam river overseeing the lobby. The check-in went smooth,so we where ready to explore the place. When we arrived at our lodge, the first thing that came too mind was too take a long shower and jump on this bed. Lovely accomodation, nature all around sounds,the river view from our lodge,brought me too a peaceful place. I enjoyed the peace and quiet. The staff is very nice and they now how too treat there guest. The place brings you too certain relaxing mode. One day was definitely too short for us too see the whole place and the adventure center. Maybe next time. I love too share so here are some pictures !!!!Comment and share till next time !!!!!!!!!

Mad!!!

I am mad because you left me

I am mad because you did not tell me

I am mad because you did not speak to me

I am mad because you did not write to me

I am mad because I miss you like crazy

I am mad because I love you, and I never told you

I am mad because you just left me alone forever

And I AM MAD AT MYSELF

For leaving you !!!!

I write this in loving memory of my sister today would be her 28th birthday !!!!!!

A random sunday picnic and history lesson !!!!!!!!!!

As I shared in my last post when its vacation time my family loves to come together, so we decided on a random sunday to stage a picnic, at Nieuw Amsterdam here, an old sugar plantation. Some off us where not prepared for the weather including me ,and thought we would just sit under a tent. But the sun did not give us the time of day only one song comes in too my head thinking about that  sunday ‘Feeling hot hot hot!!!!! here of The Merrymen. Thats why we followed my uncle to the nearest tree,and actually had a real picnic. My boys had a blast running around in the grass and looking at cargo ships passing by. Later on we walked into the Museum of Nieuw Amsterdam and looking at all the old interieur from the military and plantation owners. We even stumbled upon old phones of the national phone company Telesur. They provide the country with phone services and wifi wherever you may be. I keep on rabelling about our day here are some pictures too get a glims of hour random picnic sunday!!! Till next time bye bye !!!!